Ive been reading blogs, facebook groups, twitter comments and writing magazines and there seems to be a lot of words bandied about like, determination and dedication, in relation to writing, with suggestions that we should be writing every day without fail, making ourselves sit down and write even when we don’t want to or are simply too tired.
For me, this takes the fun out of writing. I don’t want to make it a chore, something I detest and do through gritted teeth like I would when the bathroom needs cleaning.
For me writing is fun. It’s exciting seeing the words bring something to life and seeing that it’s me sitting there actually creating them. Its an amazing feeling. I don’t want to turn that off because it would put me in the category of not dedicated or disciplined.
Yes I’m writing a novel and I’m fully determined to complete it and push for publication ( I know that not an easy journey but that’s off point) Just because I’m slower at it does not make me any less talented. (I’m not banging my own drum here but if I were talented) Just because I don’t make myself do it when I don’t feel like it, doesn’t mean my words don’t make a person on the page come alive and be believable. (obviously my talent isn’t set in stone that I’m any good, but if I was, how long it’s taking me to write it, won’t detract from my greatness. )
Writing doesn’t pay the bills. In fact I haven’t seen a single penny. I have a full time job, which, to be honest is pretty exhausting at the minute (health issues) then I have a husband, house and kids to come home to as do many writers. Even when I get published, I know I’m still going to have to do both jobs and at that point I may have writing deadlines to keep. But now, now writing is fun, it’s exciting and it’s done when I feel I want to or when I feel well enough to push myself even if I don’t want to but thats few and far between.
Writing isn’t something I must do or I shrivel up and turn into a spineless jellyfish. I wasn’t born to write. It’s not in my genes. It’s not what I was made to do. Lots of phrases I hear thrown about quite freely to be honest. Writing is what I enjoy doing.
I will write my novel in full and complete it this year, but I will not take the joy out of it by thinking I couldn’t possibly be a real writer if I don’t write every day. I am a real writer. I write. I can be published even if I’m slow.
I know this goes against the grain of a lot of writers and how writing should be approached, but it’s how I feel about it and I’m writing and having fun when I do it, even if its not everyday.
What do you think is needed to be a writer? Do you feel you have to do it even when you don’t want to and if so, is any of the joy removed?