I thought I’d have this post as a bit of an update post as I seem to have been missing in action for some time. It feels that way to me at least. Other than guest posts, I’ve really struggled to get myself motivated to sit down and blog. It just seemed that step too far for me. It wasn’t that I was in complete meltdown or anything. I had enough energy to work, and work hard, as we’ve been really stretched recently. I’ve then managed to come home and work on the revisions for my manuscript. After that, the battery ran out of power and I wasn’t capable of anything else.
Today is the last day of three days leave I’ve taken from work. This is following a weekend off, so all in all, I’ve had five days off and I’ve managed to recover a little energy back and some motivation to blog and catch up with everyone. It has been really great. I’ve had lie-ins in the mornings and worked on the revisions from my bed with a cup of tea by my side. I’ve had relaxed days working at my own pace. Writing, blogging, having a break in front of the TV, and reading whenever a change was needed. It has been wonderful. I would absolutely love to be able to be a full time writer. Having the time and space to do it at a pace and location that is good for me, has proved productive and I have more than enjoyed it. I love the day job, but I’ve also loved being able to do this. Doing both together is hard work!
Anyway, the revisions are coming on great. I’ve been swinging between optimism and despair for a few weeks, thinking I can do it, then wondering why on Earth I thought I could do it! I’m rubbish, hopeless and also delusional if I think anyone would want to read this. But – this week, it feels like it’s changing. I can feel the book again. Really feel it. The characters are back in my head and working with me. Having been out on query for while, I had felt distanced and this had proved problematic when attempting to revise, but now I feel comfortable and in a place where I know what needs to be done and more importantly, feel that I can actually do it. Knowing what needs to be done is great, now I just need to find out if I do in fact have it in me, to put what’s in my head, down onto the screen.
Ask me again next week if I feel as optimistic and you may get a different answer!
If you write, do you need to be close to your work, or do you find the break does you good?