I’ve been thinking about writing this post all week, and now I’m sat in front of my keyboard I have no idea what to say or how to say it. I’m sure you can identify with that feeling and not just with blog posts. A blank screen can either be something wonderful and inviting or like facing a blank and fierce wall. Today I appear to be staring into the face of that wall.
What I want to tell you about is where I am with my manuscript in relation to moving on from the rejection last Monday, but staring at this white screen here, my mind is drawing a blank. I really should carry a note book about with me and stop and pull the car over when I have idea’s. The problem is, I do a lot of my thinking when I’m driving. My drive to work is about 45 minutes, so twice a day gives me a wonderful hour and a half a day uninterrupted thinking time. The problem is, if I pulled over every time I had an idea, I’d never get anywhere, or I’d have to at least double my driving time! I rely on my memory holding on to it all and believe if it’s a good idea, then it will stay and if not, then it won’t really be missed.
This has also been the process with my manuscript since the rejection. For the past two weeks, I have been running through it in my head, during the drive to and from work. On Monday of this week, I actually picked up an A4 notepad I had in my desk drawer and started the initial steps for the revisions.
It was only a week to the day after the rejection. I genuinely thought it would take me longer. I thought I would need more time to recover, to pick myself up and dust myself down, but do you know what? Having that time to think and process and feel my way through the manuscript in my head, along with the feedback, I know that this book is right. I can absolutely work on the points raised and I can make it better. I believe in this work. I believe in my characters. The revision process has started.
Is there somewhere you like to go to think things through and work things out?